purpose

Another day rolls by ...and like a stone it gathers no moss..
The purpose of this existence baffles me and the inconsequentiality bothers me..A step at a time it was meant 2 b...but alas ..a step forward and backward
Irreverence is plunging to greater depths ...I am suffering from a death wish maybe...
I ask myself ,whether evrything happens with a purpose....or we attach to much consequence to the freak incident our existence is....What is the purpose of life ??....is it to just exist for the allocated time,to act in accordance with a predetermined agenda..Life scares me when it is too simple...like now...feelz sumthing is abt to happen ..Chaos is a beautiful word...
What is the natural state of existence of man ..is it working ??
Why does man work ??
For survival..for existence ...for purpose...
There is a compelling motivation behind mans choice to work ...hunger ,punishment ,fear ....but what if all these 'compelling factors' are removed ...what will motivate him to work...
Work for once doesnt mean toiling in the fields all day long ....he has resources to take of himself...then why does he work ??

Perpetuosity of looneydom

Perpetuosity of looneydom......
well i jst wanted to use this word ...mite as well relate it 2 my life ...it has become too silly ,even by itsown pygmy standard..I see my self doing the same motions day in and day out ...without any semblence of vitality..the only thing tht changes is the weather and the date..

Know Thyself....i learnt bout mahslf 2 ...frm sum1 who spilled the beanz on my rep in proffessional circles..

Kapil has 2 mch attitude...bahut udta hai...comes frm sum jrk i barely knw ...n have been courteous to 3/ 3 times i have met him ...man i evn offrd him a lift once...n the client whoz a ll pally pally wid me on the phn...thinks m obnoxious ..coz i call him by name ...n not adress his highness as sirrrrr....OMG...

All this comes courtsey sum 1 who waz snt 2 keep a tab on me...n whn got satisfied am not tht big a jrk...brk the secret ...tht ppl hate my gutz...

Well ...lemme c why ...Coz i emailed to da CEO bout the trash deal v gettin..whn ppl jst murmured amngst emselves n lookin at each othrz faces ....ahem aft tht mail ...it got trasshier...hehe...now i mailed 2 my RDH ..wh he percieves 2 b an attmpt at unionbazi...
hmmm ...i guess i shd keep mah tail bween my legz n kissass..wrks 4 mst of the country...

NO WAY ...am not a cattle which dsnt dare raise itz head...i wil spk out for myself ...if i see sumthin wrng ...n i dnt care if sum1 takes offnc 2 it ...I am outspoken...yes ..if it has 2 be tht way ...

well i guess i strt hittin naukri.com now

Everything that has a begining has an end .... 

Look whoz back !!

well !!! Satan may fear to tread here ,but am too lazy to evn come here ..if that allayz hiz fearz ..itz been a long month since i posted something .The month came n went by and I managed to finish 10 site throughout Punjab.The toughest part was doing w/o being online...I saw the slaughter on the sensex and couldnt scratch a ratz ass bout it....well ..didnt lose 2 much xcpt some sleep ..Imagine not a single webworld had the data cable in stock ..and this would include evn Chandigarh ...so much 4 being at a happenin place..... grrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

The good news is that finally I have settled for the incumbent laptop.I was feelin screwed since a pal quoted lower price for the model which I previously got from my vendor.But one look at the Lenovo website for prices n my demons are at rest.Talkin of laptops ,I managed to configure mine with the RO lan..firstly through the cable n then..thru WiFi ...ahem ...oki the SI on assignment helped...But man ....tz an awsum feelin ....I even installed the printer driver on the RO pc..wirelessly ...runnin the driver CD in my laptop (they dont have Drives on the outlet pcs )...All this ...sittin at the adjacent dhabha sippin a cuppa .Man...do I love technology :) n am I cool or what ...hmm Mr WiFi...i guess this is one of the few occassions whn I actually feel that my engineering degree has consequence than an excuse for killing 4 yrz ..
This leg of tour othervise was ok ...GK tld me tht hel b sendin me to Himachal....wow.n news also pilfered thru tht urz trulyis amongst those promoted to the rank of lead trainer ...which means.....nothin.........just tht now I will officially handle my own team ...As if my CV wasnt showin tht responsibility on the various job sites ..ever since I got this job:p...Thebosses have somehow been generous with the job titles...and thatz bout it ..we started off as .. application s/w trainer...then retalix trainer..then IT Trainer ahem...then commisioning team trainer...now a lead trainer ..I dont think even a Train would be havin so man bogeys than what we trainers have 4 job titles....n thtz itz...still wud b paid the same pittiance ..n now wud wud b made evn more grateful for the "Excellent learning Experience "..the only learning I seem to b gettin is to live on a shoestring budget ....
...I came back with a sense of achievementand a bad cold...runny nose n the works ..
Have my GMAT on the 21st n havent even purchased a book ..im shit lethargic..which brings me to my plans for ISB...which as of now have been put on freeze ...so now I wont b batch2 007 but 008.....yaaa right ... as if I have open ticket for ISB..
When I think bout it ...might turn out to be a smart move....placement wise..this is the only consequential job I have had till date b...a BPO n a PR firm isnt ne1z idea of career accomplishment....The company needz me for the prjct ...itz gonna b real hectic in the coming weeks ..wid Ambani saab shooting off targets to all TM's...
Also me n my ilk are more productive than the Master Trainers, not to mention ..hell cheaper to maintain...I jst hope whn March comes, I have somethin to smile bout......A Master Trainer job title wud b nice ....the only Master thing happnin othrvise is the bation one :p
btw happy gandhi jayanti !!!

All 4 tonite

Hittin the road..

Today I tried to do something different ...and decided to go to the site by a local bus...it was not a long trip ...yet it was a long journey ...now I have travelled by buses all my life but this time it was different ..here I was wearing my 3000 buckz killer loops ,laptop dangling from the shoulder of my classy shirt.. smelling goody goody ,as i steeped into a rickety n two tyres in the grave bus....n thought ... damn u INDYA...why cnt ply AC Volvos evrywhr...v need the greyhoundz here 2..my butt which has become more accustomed to having cushioned surfaces underneath protested at the very sensation on coir filled PVC....n since my cranium is emotionally attached to my butt via spinal cord,i thought bout hiring a cab...but my heart n the prospect of saving a few hundred rupees persisted ...n i mounted the bus.....5 minutes hogging my precious seat n I was dripping like Mumbai's skyline...n the bus wasnt gonna move till it was packed like Pam Anderson's bra...thankfully ..the torment lasted for a few more more minutes... n v were off....I was clueless bout where to get off ,so relied on the Reliance brand name and my weird Punjabi to eventually rch my destination...The dealer was nice Sardarji,who started abusing the company as soon as he shook my hand.It so happened that his pump was almost dry n despite repeated requests ,no despatch was being made ,apparently due to shortage of tankers.I personally saw him turn down dozens of his regular customers...n it hurt...

That apart he was oki n offrd me chai n biscuit...Eventually realization dawned upon him that he needed to offer me some grub..... at 5 pm....n I had to settle for junky patties n anothr cuppa chai..

Got late n he asked one of his vistors to drop me somewhere.....the guy took me in his antiquated Omni n set me on a path which would eventually end up as a road in the not so distant future...till then its a path..He stopped at a dhaba or sumthin.......n had a peg....n now I was scared....if the road wasnt bad enough ,n my luck fickle enough,this guy was gettin high....Thankfully he dropped me before I got killed ...

to be contd.........................

Bhatinda diary

Took the afternoon bus to Bhatinda ...cant still figure out the logic behind the scheduling off our trip...me could have very well stayed in Ludhiana and done the next site too....instead they schedule RH for that n I m supposed to move to Bhatinda ...n from what I gather ,I am not the only one !

Had questioned Boss bout the logic behind such logistics..all I could gather was that done according to client requirements and priorities ...n our trips were scheduled after massive brainstorming .....yaa right ..

Well my fare meter is running so why to complain ....Bhatinda is no Chandigarh ,but I would still give this city a chance...the bus ride was tiring..they put on an oldie sunny deol starrer ...yateem....ewww..n swtchd it off in btween ...the fun prt was watchin SD swim n pumpin up in butt huggin nude color chuddies ..for once i evn thot he jumped in the lake in the buff .All this happnz while the chic gather flowers in anticipation of the great indian filmi mating sequence...with buds crossin each other n parrots schmoozin ..jhankar beats n the workz ingrained seamlessly into one long n tired metaphor of carnal pleasure..bollywood ishtyle.. taalian..rchd my destination n took off for the hotel RH had recommended...minutes later I realised why...the hotel has a hottie at the reception ..but alas ....shez n ice maiden ....was starin at her longgggggg n preety fingers while she was showin me the tariff card...askd bout whtz all complementary wid the room ..was secretly hopin she would be ...but man ..no such luck..n i wud even have to pay for the breakfast....not my day..n evn worse couldnt even get a smile out of her even when she would b gettin paid to smile all the time..i know it wasnt me ..so i guess it must be that time of the month ...took my room..they sound like models of Maruti cars....LX DLX VX ...I wish thr was a XXX too !! wid the hottie at the reception complementary !!!! ummmmmmmmmmm...............................hehe ..ur wild sweetie...grrrr........ hmmmmm.... ohh ...

back from thinkin what it could have been ..n m in my nice ..but lonely bed bout to call it a day ...have to begin the training at Ramamandi RO tmrw...i hope the dealer is a decent chap....which more or less translates into whether he would be feedin me lunch or not....ummm thtz till tmrw

Here we go ! I finally decide to put my thoughts to the keyboard and type my reflctions on life as it happens for whomsoever who cares or dares !!!I just hope I do overcome the tempation of doing 'Other Stuff ' and put some time here !!! Here it goes ..